It's the middle of the night, and the house is asleep and quiet. A dreaming, mumbling voice starts murmuring from atop a temperpedic pillow, "strong and weak... like everybody else.. human." Yep, that's right folks, I think about health and wellness SO much that I actually woke myself up in the middle of the night last night talking out loud, apparently trying to give motivation to my partner. I woke when I heard him say, "What? Just like everybody else- what did you say?" At which point I woke up fully and realized that I had been having a dream in which he had confided that he had eaten fast food and felt he had been weak, and I had been saying something like, "You are not weak, you have your strong and weak moments like everybody else. That's just being human." Of course, the latter part of the dialogue came out out loud, and in response to... no one. Just my subconscious talking to itself. Apparently I can't get enough during my conscious hours ;)
But awake or not, my subconscious mind has a point. No one is constantly "weak" or constantly strong. Everyone makes choices, and attaching labels of good or bad to those choices doesn't really help anything. I do think it's a great idea to acknowledge those moments and choices where the decision we make moves us in a healthy direction, like choosing to give ourselves an hour of yoga, or choosing to start the day with a power-up breakfast. At the same time, when we "slip up" and do something that might not be considered healthy, like eating fast food or watching tv instead of taking a walk- berating ourselves and beating ourselves up for it does a lot more damage than whatever the original action might have.
This issue is really close to my heart, because it's probably the thing I struggle with the most myself. My beautiful momma always said that we unfortunately tend to remember negative comments more strongly than the "atta-boy" positive comments. This is true even when we are talking to ourselves. If, for example, we need to hear 10 positive things to cancel out hearing one negative thing, maybe we could start by listening closely to and modifying the things we say to ourselves. A practice I've found helps when the internal voice gets a bit too bullying, is to think of a small photo of yourself as a child. When you start hearing those mean voices berate yourself (Man those jeans look awful on you, your complexion is so horrible, etc) imagine saying those things out loud to that sweet child. What would she or he be feeling to hear those things? Do you realize you ARE saying those things to that same person? If you have a child, can you imagine telling THEM they look horrible today, or using that belittling tone to make them feel they are fat or lazy or weak? If you wouldn't say it to your daughter, don't say it to yourself. What would you tell her instead?
Maybe your jeans mysteriously "shrunk" in the wash and now are a bit snug (obviously kidding, we know what really happened..), but instead of dwelling on that, maybe focus on how you walked to do an errand today, or maybe you took a deep breath instead of getting frustrated while waiting in a line. Find something, any little thing, that you did today that you can praise. Then tell THAT to your reflection. At first it may feel silly or contrived, but after a while you will notice that promoting the behaviors and the feelings that you see in yourself which lead to healthy, positive life choices will generate more of the same! Why point out and dwell on the negative things? It's a bad habit, one I am all too guilty of as well, but acknowledging it and moving on is half the battle.
Sure, even my talking-in-my-sleep subconscious knows that sometimes we make less than ideal choices, and that sometimes that makes us feel weak. But let's focus on not letting those moments classify us as weak or less than ideal. Next time, we can choose differently. But no matter what, we all have our strong and weak moments. That's what makes us human. Bringing true joy to that humanity lies in selectively seeing and promoting behaviors you want to see more often. See the best in yourself and point it out to yourself. What you focus on expands!